The Twilight Saga 3: Eclipse Chapter 2. EVASION

I FELT ODDLY BUOYANT AS I WALKED FROM SPANISH dragard the cafeteria, and it wasnt s bunstily beca manipulation I was stamp downing gifts with the most perfect person on the tabloidt, though that was certainly part of it. peradventure it was the k bulge come forth slumpledge that my sentence was served and I was a free woman once once again.Or perhaps it wasnt some(prenominal)thing to do with me specific bothy. Maybe it was the atmosphere of freedom that hung all over the entire campus. School was winding d hold, and, for the aged class especially, on that saddle was a perceptible thr charge in the air. license was so tight-fitting it was touchable, taste-able. Signs of it were e verywhere. Posters crowded together on the cafeteria walls, and the trashcans wore a dark-skinned skirt of spilled-over fliers relearning abilityers to buy yearbooks, class rings, and announcements deadlines to order falseset g causes, hats, and tassels neon- bright gross sales pitches t he juniors campaigning for class office ominous, rose-wreathed advertisements for this years prom. The big dance was this coming weekend, however I had an ironclad promise from Edward that I would non be subjected to that again. after(prenominal)(prenominal) all, Id already had that human experience.No, it mustiness(prenominal) be my personal freedom that lightened me today. The destruction of the school year did not give me the plea authoritative it counted to give the some otherwise students. Actually, I felt nervous to the point of nausea whe neer I model of it. I snip-tested to not think of it. yet it was hard to flying such an omnipresent exposecome as graduation.Have you sent your announcements, to that degree? Angela asked when Edward and I sat smooth at our table. She had her light brown tomentum pulled fundament into a sloppy ponytail instead of her usual smooth hairdo, and there was a slightly frantic solecism to a greater extent or less her gestate .Alice and Ben were already there, too, on either side of Angela. Ben was intent over a comic book, his glaze sliding fine-tune his narrow nose. Alice was scrutinizing my boring jeans-and-a-t-shirt step upfit in a personal manner that make water me self-conscious. Probably plotting some other makeover. I sighed. My in distinguishable locating to fashion was a constant thorn in her side. If Id allow it, shed heat to dress me each day perhaps several ms a day wish some oversized one-third-dimensional paper doll.No, I answered Angela. theres no point, rightfully. Rene acknowledges when Im graduating. Who else is there?How approximately you, Alice?Alice smiled. All d unitary.Lucky you. Angela sighed. My mother has a thousand cousins and she expects me to lead-address one and only(a) to everybody. Im red to get gondolapal tunnel. I cant format it off any(prenominal) farsighteder and Im equitable dreading it. Ill help you, I volunteered. If you dont mind my aw ful handwriting.Charlie would homogeneous that. From the corner of my eye, I saying Edward smile. He must equal that, too me ful alter Charlies conditions with off involving werewolves.Angela looked relieved. Thats so nice of you. Ill come over any time you penury.Actually, Id rather go to your rear if thats okay Im sick of mine. Charlie un-grounded me stick give a demeanor night. I grinned as I announced my sober news.Really? Angela asked, haywire excitement lighting her ever so-gentle brown look. I thought you verbalize you were in for life-time.Im more affect than you ar. I was certain(a) I would at least(prenominal) buzz off finished high school originally he caboodle me free.Well, this is great, Bella Well aim to go turn out to celebrate.You reserve no idea how in force(p) that sounds.What should we do? Alice mused, her breast lighting up at the possibilities. Alices ideas were usually a littler grandiose for me, and I could overhear it in her eyes now the tendency to take things too far kicking into action.Whatever youre thinking, Alice, I doubt Im that free.Free is free, right? she insisted.Im sure I still involve boundaries like the continental U.S., for example.Angela and Ben laughed, still Alice grimaced in real disappointment.So what be we doing tonight? she persisted.nothing. Look, permits give it a couple of days to make sure he wasnt joking. Its a school night, any federal agency. Well celebrate this weekend, indeed. Alices enthusiasm was impossible to repress. reliable, I express, hoping to placate her. I knew I wasnt divergence to do anything too hoidenish it would be safer to take it slow with Charlie. Give him a chance to hold dear how trustworthy and mature I was in front I asked for any favors.Angela and Alice started frustrate astir(predicate) options Ben joined the conversation, setting his comics aside. My attention drifted. I was impress to hap that the subject of my freedom was suddenly not as gratifying as it had been unspoiled a moment ago. While they discussed things to do in appearance Angeles or maybe Hoquiam, I began to feel disgruntled.It didnt take long to visit where my restlessness stemmed from.Ever since Id said goodbye to Jacob Black in the forest external my home, Id been plagued by a persistent, uncomfortable intrusion of a specific mental picture. It popped into my thoughts at regular intervals like some plaguey alarm clock set to sound every half hour, filling my head with the image of Jacobs guinea pig crumpled in pain. This was the last holding I had of him.As the disturbing vision potty again, I knew merely why I was dissatisfied with my liberty. Because it was incomplete.Sure, I was free to go to anywhere I motivationed except La Push free to do anything I indispensablenessed except see Jacob. I frowned at the table. There had to be some patient of of middle ground.Alice? AliceAngelas voice yanked me from my reverie. She was waving h er hand adventure and forth in front of Alices blank, gaze face. Alices aspect was something I recognized an conceptualisation that sent an automatic shock of panic finished with(predicate) my body. The vacant look in her eyes told me that she was seeing something very different from the mundane lunchroom scene that surrounded us, only when something that was every bit as real in its own mien. just aboutthing that was coming, something that would happen soon. I felt the squanderer slither from my face.Then Edward laughed, a very natural, relaxed sound. Angela and Ben looked toward him, and my eyes were locked on Alice. She jumped suddenly, as if psyche had kicked her at a lower place the table.Is it naptime already, Alice? Edward teased.Alice was herself again. Sorry, I was daydreaming, I view.Daydreamings recrudesce than cladding two more hours of school, Ben said.Alice threw herself rearwards into the conversation with more animation than in the first place jus t a little bit too more than. Once I power saw her eyes lock with Edwards, only for a moment, and hence she looked sand to Angela in the beginning anyone else noticed. Edward was quiet, play absentmindedly with a strand of my hair.I waited uneasily for a chance to ask Edward what Alice had seen in her vision, but the afternoon passed without one minute of alone time.It felt odd to me, almost deliberate. After lunch, Edward slowed his whole step to match Bens, talking virtually some assignment I knew hed already finished. Then there was always someone else there between classes, though we usually had a few minutes to ourselves. When the final bell rang, Edward struck up a conversation with microphone Newton of all people, travel into step beside him as Mike headed for the parking lot. I trailed behind, letting Edward tow me along.I listened, confused, while Mike answered Edwards unusually friendly queries. It seemed Mike was having car difficultys.. . . but I just replaced the battery, Mike was saying. His eyes darted ahead and then back to Edward warily. Mystified, just like I was.Perhaps its the cables? Edward offered.Maybe. I really dont know anything about(predicate) cars, Mike admitted. I use up to subscribe someone look at it, but I cant afford to take it to Dowlings.I opened my mouth to suggest my mechanic, and then snapped it fill up again. My mechanic was finicky these days busy running around as a titan wolf.I know a few things I could take a look, if you like, Edward offered. Just let me drop Alice and Bella at home.Mike and I two st bed at Edward with our mouths hanging open. Er . . . thanks, Mike mumbled when he recovered. exclusively I have to get to work. Maybe some other time.Absolutely. suck ya. Mike climbed into his car, shaking his head in disbelief.Edwards Volvo, with Alice already inside, was just two cars outside.What was that about? I muttered as Edward held the passenger door for me.Just creation helpful, Edward ans wered.And then Alice, waiting in the backseat, was babbling at top speed.Youre really not that good a mechanic, Edward. Maybe you should have Rosalie take a look at it tonight, just so you look good if Mike decides to let you help, you know. Not that it wouldnt be fun to watch his face if Rosalie showed up to help. provided since Rosalie is supposed to be across the country attending college, I guess thats not the outdo idea. Too bad. Though I suppose, for Mikes car, youll do. Its only inside the finer tunings of a good Italian sports car that youre out of your depth. And utter of Italy and sports cars that I stole there, you still owe me a yellow Porsche. I dont know that I want to wait for Christmas. . . .I stop auditory modality after a minute, letting her affectionate voice become just a hum in the background as I settled into my patient mode.It looked to me like Edward was trying to avoid my questions. Fine. He would have to be alone with me soon equal. It was only a mat ter of time.Edward seemed to elucidate that, too. He dropped Alice at the mouth of the Cullens mount as usual, though by this point I half expected him to drive her to the door and walk her in.As she got out, Alice threw a sharp look at his face. Edward seemed completely at ease. probe you later, he said. And then, ever so slightly, he nodded.Alice dark to disappear into the trees.He was quiet as he turn the car around and headed back to Forks. I waited, wondering if he would exploit it up himself. He didnt, and this do me tense. What had Alice seen today at lunch? Something he didnt want to express me, and I tried to think of a reason why he would withhold secrets. Maybe it would be purify to prepare myself before I asked. I didnt want to freak out and have him think I couldnt report it, whatever it was.So we were both silent until we got to back to Charlies house.Light cookery load tonight, he commented.Mmm, I assented.Do you suppose Im allowed inside again?Charlie did nt throw a fit when you picked me up for school.But I was sure Charlie was going to turn sulky fast when he got home and plunge Edward here. Maybe I should make something extra-special for dinner.Inside, I headed up the stairs, and Edward followed. He lounged on my bed and gazed out the window, seeming oblivious to my edginess.I stowed my bag and turned the electronic estimator on. There was an unanswered e-mail from my mom to attend to, and she got terrified when I took too long. I drummed my fingers as I waited for my decrepit computer to wheeze awake they snapped against the desk, staccato and anxious.And then his fingers were on mine, holding them still. be we a little impatient today? he murmured.I looked up, intending to make a sarcastic remark, but his face was closer than Id expected. His golden eyes were smoldering, just inches away, and his breath was cool against my open mouthpieces. I could taste his bouquet on my tongue.I couldnt remember the witty receipt Id bee n about to make. I couldnt remember my name.He didnt give me a chance to recover.If I had my way, I would spend the majority of my time kissing Edward. There wasnt anything Id experienced in my life that compared to the feeling of his cool lips, marble hard but always so gentle, travel with mine.I didnt often get my way.So it surprise me a little when his fingers braided themselves into my hair, securing my face to his. My fortification locked behind his neck, and I wished I was stronger strong enough to keep him prisoner here. One hand slid down my back, pressing me tighter against his stone chest. Even through his sweater, his skin was ice-cold enough to make me shiver it was a shiver of pleasure, of happiness, but his pass on began to loosen in response.I knew I had about three seconds before he would sigh and slide me deftly away, saying something about how wed risked my life enough for one afternoon. Making the most of my last seconds, I embarrassed myself closer, moldin g myself to the shape of him. The tip of my tongue traced the curve of his lower lip it was as flawlessly smooth as if it had been polished, and the taste He pulled my face away from his, breaking my hold with ease he probably didnt horizontal realize that I was using all my strength.He chuckled once, a low, throaty sound. His eyes were bright with the excitement he so rigidly disciplined. Ah, Bella. He sighed.Id say Im sorry, but Im not.And I should feel sorry that youre not sorry, but I dont. Maybe I should go sit on the bed. I exhaled a little dizzily. If you think thats necessary. . . .He smiled crookedly and disentangled himself.I shook my head a few multiplication, trying to clear it, and turned back to my computer. It was all warmed up and humming now. Well, not as lots humming as groaning.Tell Rene I said hello.Sure thing.I scanned through Renes e-mail, shaking my head now and then at some of the dippier things shed done. I was just as entertained and horrified as the fir st time Id read this. It was so like my mother to lay to rest exactly how paralyzed she was by heights until she was already strapped to a start and a dive instructor.I felt a little queer with Phil, her husband of almost two days, for allowing that one. I would have taken better dispense of her. I knew her so much better.You have to let them go their own way eventually, I reminded myself. You have to let them have their own life. . . .Id spent most of my life taking care of Rene, patiently manoeuver her away from her craziest plans, good- naturedly enduring the ones I couldnt talk her out of. Id always been easygoing with my mom, amused by her, even a little condescending to her. I saw her cornucopia of mistakes and laughed privately to myself. Scatterbrained Rene.I was a very different person from my mother. Someone thoughtful and cautious. The responsible one, the grown-up. Thats how I saw myself. That was the person I knew. With the blood still pounding inmy head from Edw ards kiss, I couldnt help but think of my mothers most life-altering mistake. Silly and romantic, getting get fitched with fresh out of high school to a man she merely knew, then producing me a year later. Shed always promised me that she had no regrets, that I was the best gift her life had ever given her. And yet shed drilled it into me over and over smart people took marriage seriously. Mature people went to college and started careers before they got loggerheadedly affect in a relationship. She knew I would never be as thoughtless and goofy and small-town as shed been. . . . I gritted my teeth and tried to concentrate as I answered her letter.Then I hit her section line and remembered why Id neglected to write sooner.You havent said anything about Jacob in a long time, shed written. Whats he up to these days? Charlie was prompting her, I was sure.I sighed and typed quickly, tucking the answer to her question between two less crude paragraphs.Jacob is fine, I guess. I don t see him much he spends most of his time with a pack of his friends down at La Push these days. mirthful wryly to myself, I added Edwards greeting and hit send.I didnt realize that Edward was standing(a) silently behind me again until after Id turned off the computer and shoved away from the desk. I was about to scold him for reading over my berm when I realised that he wasnt paying any attention to me. He was examining a flat black box with wires curling crookedly away from the main square in a way that didnt look muscular for whatever it was. After a second, I recognized the car two-channel Emmett, Rosalie, and Jasper had given me for my last birthday. Id disregarded about the birthday presents hiding under a growing pile of dust on the pull down of my closet.What did you do to this? he asked in a horrorstruck voice.It didnt want to come out of the dashboard.So you felt the need to torture it?You know how I am with tools. No pain was inflicted intentionally.He shook his hea d, his face a mask of assumed tragedy. You killed it.I shrugged. Oh, well.It would hurt their feelings if they saw this, he said. I guess its a good thing that youve been on house arrest. Ill have to get another one in place before they notice.Thanks, but I dont need a fancy stereo.Its not for your sake that Im going to replace it.I sighed.You didnt get much good out of your birthday presents last year, he said in a disgruntled voice.Suddenly, he was fanning himself with a sealed rectangle of paper.I didnt answer, for fear my voice would shake. My disastrous eighteenth birthday with all its far- reaching consequences wasnt something I cared to remember, and I was surprised that he would bring it up. He was even more sensitive about it than I was.Do you realize these are about to expire? he asked, holding the paper out to me. It was another present the voucher for planer tickets that Esme and Carlisle had given me so that I could visit Rene in Florida. I took a deep breath and answered in a flat voice. No. Id forgotten all about them, actually.His appearance was prudently bright and positive there was no trace of any deep emotion as he continued.Well, we still have a little time. Youve been liberated . . . and we have no plans this weekend, as you refuse to go to the prom with me. He grinned. Why not celebrate your freedom this way?I gasped. By going to Florida?You did say something about the continental U.S. organism allowable.I glared at him, suspicious, trying to understand where this had come from.Well? he demanded. Are we going to see Rene or not?Charlie will never allow it.Charlie cant keep you from visiting your mother. She still has primary work force.Nobody has custody of me. Im an adult.He flashed a brilliant smile. Exactly.I thought it over for a short minute before deciding that it wasnt worth the fight. Charlie would be uncultivated not that I was going to see Rene, but that Edward was going with me. Charlie wouldnt declare to me for m onths, and Id probably end up grounded again. It was definitely smarter not to even bring it up. Maybe in a few weeks, as a graduation favor or something.But the idea of seeing my mother now, not weeks from now, was hard to resist. It had been so long since Id seen Rene. And even longer since Id seen her under agreeable circumstances. The last time Id been with her in Phoenix, Id spent the whole time in a hospital bed. The last time shed come here, Id been more or less catatonic. Not exactly the best memories to leave her with.And maybe, if she saw how bright I was with Edward, she would tell Charlie to ease up.Edward scrutinized my face while I deliberated.I sighed. Not this weekend.Why not?I dont want to fight with Charlie. Not so soon after hes forgiven me.His eyebrows pulled together. I think this weekend is perfect, he muttered.I shook my head. Another time.You arent the only one whos been trapped in this house, you know. He frowned at me.Suspicion returned. This kind of beha vior was unlike him. He was always so impossibly selfless I knew it was making me spoiled.You can go anywhere you want, I pointed out.The outside world holds no kindle for me without you.I rolled my eyes at the hyperbole.Im serious, he said.Lets take the outside world slowly, all right? For example, we could start with a movie in Port Angeles. . . .He groaned. Never mind. Well talk about it later.Theres nothing left(a) to talk about.He shrugged.Okay, then, new subject, I said. Id almost forgotten my worries about this afternoon had that been his intention? What did Alice see today at lunch?My eyes were fixed on his face as I spoke, measuring his reaction.His expression was composed there was only the slightest hardening of his topaz eyes. Shes been seeing Jasper in a strange place, somewhere in the southwest, she thinks, near his former . . . family. But he has no conscious intentions to go back. He sighed. Its got her worried.Oh. That was nothing close to what Id been expecting. But of course it made sense that Alice would be watching out for Jaspers future. He was her soul mate, her true other half, though they werent as fire tree about their relationship as Rosalie and Emmett were. Why didnt you tell me before?I didnt realize youd noticed, he said. Its probably nothing important, in any case.My sight was sadly out of control. Id taken a perfectly normal afternoon and ill-shapen it until it looked like Edward was going out of his way to keep things from me. I needed therapy.We went downstairs to work on our homework, just in case Charlie showed up early. Edward finished in minutes I slogged laboriously through my calculus until I decided it was time to fix Charlies dinner. Edward helped, making faces every so often at the raw ingredients human food was mildly repulsive to him. I made stroganoff from Grandma Swans recipe, because I was sucking up. It wasnt one of my favorites, but it would please Charlie.Charlie seemed to already be in a good mood w hen he got home. He didnt even go out of his way to be rude to Edward. Edward excused himself from eating with us, as usual. The sound of the every night news drifted from the front room, but I doubted Edward was really watching.After forcing down three helpings, Charlie kicked his feet up on the spare chair and folded his hands contentedly across his distended stomach.That was great, Bells.Im glad you liked it. How was work? Hed been eating with too much concentration for me to make conversation before.Sort of slow. Well, dead slow really. jell and I played cards for a good part of the afternoon, he admitted with a grin. I won, nineteen hands to seven. And then I was on the phone with Billy for a while.I tried to keep my expression the same. How is he?Good, good. His joints are bothering him a little.Oh. Thats too bad. Yeah. He invited us down to visit this weekend. He was thinking of having the Clearwaters and the Uleys over too. Sort of a playoff party. . . .Huh, was my sense r esponse. But what could I say? I knew I wouldnt be allowed to hit a werewolf party, even with parental supervision. I wondered if Edward would have a problem with Charlie hanging out in La Push. Or would he suppose that, since Charlie was mostly spending time with Billy, who was only human, my fetch wouldnt be in danger?I got up and piled the dishes together without looking at Charlie. I dumped them into the sink and started the water. Edward appeared silently and grabbed a dishtowel. Charlie sighed and gave up for the moment, though I imagined he would revisit the subject when we were alone again. He heaved himself to his feet and headed for the TV, just like every other night. Charlie, Edward said in a conversational tone.Charlie stopped in the middle of his little kitchen. Yeah?Did Bella ever tell you that my parents gave her airplane tickets on her last birthday, so that she could visit Rene?I dropped the plate I was scrubbing. It glanced off the counter and clattered noisily t o the floor. It didnt break, but it spattered the room, and all three of us, with soapy water. Charlie didnt even seem to notice. Bella? he asked in a dazed voice.I kept my eyes on the plate as I retrieved it. Yeah, they did.Charlie swallowed loudly, and then his eyes narrowed as he turned back to Edward. No, she never mentioned it.Hmm, Edward murmured.Was there a reason you brought it up? Charlie asked in a hard voice.Edward shrugged. Theyre about to expire. I think it might hurt Esmes feelings if Bella doesnt use her gift. Not that shed say anything.I stared at Edward in disbelief.Charlie thought for a minute. Its probably a good idea for you to visit your mom, Bella. Shed love that. Im surprised you didnt say anything about this, though.I forgot, I admitted.He frowned. You forgot that someone gave you plane tickets?Mmm, I murmured vaguely, and turned back to the sink.I noticed that you said theyre about to expire, Edward, Charlie went on. How many tickets did your parents give h er?Just one for her . . . and one for me.The plate I dropped this time landed in the sink, so it didnt make as much noise. I could easily take the sharp huff as my father exhaled. The blood rushed into my face, fueled by irritation and chagrin. Why was Edward doing this? I glared at the bubbles in the sink, panicking.Thats out of the question Charlie was abruptly in a rage, shouting the words.Why? Edward asked, his voice saturated with innocent surprise. You just said it was a good idea for her to see her mother.Charlie ignored him. Youre not going anywhere with him, young lady he yelled. I spun around and he was jabbing a finger at me.Anger pulsed through me automatically, an voluntary reaction to his tone.Im not a child, Dad. And Im not grounded anymore, remember?Oh yes, you are. Starting now.For what?Because I said so.Do I need to remind you that Im a sanctioned adult, Charlie?This is my house you follow my rulesMy glare turned icy. If thats how you want it. Do you want me to move out tonight? Or can I have a few days to pack?Charlies face went bright red. I photoflashly felt horrible for playing the move-out card.I took a deep breath and tried to make my tone more reasonable. Ill do my time without complaining when Ive done something wrong, Dad, but Im not going to put up with your prejudices.He sputtered, but managed nothing coherent.Now, I know that you know that I have every right to see Mom for the weekend. You cant honestly tell me youd endeavor to the plan if I was going with Alice or Angela.Girls, he grunted, with a nod.Would it bother you if I took Jacob?Id only picked the name because I knew of my fathers preference for Jacob, but I quickly wished I hadnt Edwards teeth clenched together with an perceptible snap.My father struggled to compose himself before he answered. Yes, he said in an unconvincing voice.That would bother me.Youre a rotten liar, Dad.Bella -Its not like Im headed off to Vegas to be a showgirl or anything. Im going to see M om, I reminded him. Shes just as much my parental authority as you are.He threw me a withering look.Are you implying something about Moms ability to look after me?Charlie flinched at the threat implicit in my question.Youd better hope I dont mention this to her, I said.Youd better not, he warned. Im not happy about this, Bella.Theres no reason for you to be upset.He rolled his eyes, but I could tell the storm was over.I turned to pull the plug out of the sink. So my homework is done, your dinner is done, the dishes are done, and Im not grounded. Im going out. Ill be back before ten-thirty.Where are you going? His face, almost back to normal, ruby-red light red again.Im not sure, I admitted. Ill keep it within a ten-mile radius, though. Okay?He grunted something that did not sound like approval, and stalked out of the room. Naturally, as soon as Id won the fight, I began to feel guilty.Were going out? Edward asked, his voice low but enthusiastic.I turned to lower at him. Yes. I thi nk Id like to speak to you alone.He didnt look as apprehensive as I thought he should.I waited to begin until we were safely in his car.What was that? I demanded.I know you want to see your mother, Bella youve been talking about her in your sleep. Worrying actually.I have?He nodded. But, clearly, you were too much of a coward to deal with Charlie, so I interceded on your behalf.Interceded? You threw me to the sharksHe rolled his eyes. I dont think you were in any danger.I told you I didnt want to fight with Charlie.Nobody said that you had to.I glowered at him. I cant help myself when he gets all bossy like that my natural teenage instincts overpower me.He chuckled. Well, thats not my fault.I stared at him, speculating. He didnt seem to notice. His face was serene as he gazed out the windshield. Something was off, but I couldnt put my finger on it. Or maybe it was just my imagination again, running wild like it had this afternoon.Does this sudden stir to see Florida have anything to do with the party at Billys place?His blab flexed. Nothing at all. It wouldnt matter if you were here or on the other side of the world, you still wouldnt be going.It was just like with Charlie before just like being treated as a misbehaving child. I gritted my teeth together so I wouldnt start shouting. I didnt want to fight with Edward, too.Edward sighed, and when he spoke his voice was warm and velvet again. So what do you want to do tonight? he asked.Can we go to your house? I havent seen Esme in so long.He smiled. Shell like that. Especially when she hears what were doing this weekend.I groaned in defeat.We didnt lie out late, as Id promised. I was not surprised to see the lights still on when we pulled up in front of the house I knew Charlie would be waiting to yell at me some more.Youd better not come inside, I said. It will only make things worse.His thoughts are relatively calm, Edward teased. His expression made me wonder if there was some superfluous joke I was m issing. The corners of his mouth twitched, fighting a smile.Ill see you later, I muttered glumly.He laughed and kissed the top of my head. Ill be back when Charlies snoring.The TV was loud when I got inside. I briefly considered trying to sneak past him.Could you come in here, Bella? Charlie called, sinking that plan.My feet dragged as I took the five necessary steps.Whats up, Dad?Did you have a nice time tonight? he asked. He seemed ill at ease. I looked for hidden meanings in his words before I answered.Yes, I said hesitantly.What did you do?I shrugged. Hung out with Alice and Jasper. Edward pound up Alice at chess, and then I played Jasper. He buried me.I smiled. Edward and Alice playing chess was one of the funniest things Id ever seen. Theyd sat there nearly motionless, staring at the board, while Alice foresaw the moves he would make and he picked the moves she would make in return out of her head. They played most of the game in their minds I think theyd each moved two pawns when Alice suddenly flicked her king over and surrendered. It took all of three minutes.Charlie hit the mute button an unusual action.Look, theres something I need to say. He frowned, looking very uncomfortable.I sat still, waiting. He met my gaze for a second before shifting his eyes to the floor. He didnt say anything more.What is it, Dad?He sighed. Im not good at this kind of thing. I dont know how to start. . . .I waited again.Okay, Bella. Heres the thing. He got up from the couch and started tempo back and forth across the room, looking as his feet all the time. You and Edward seem pretty serious, and there are some things that you need to be careful about. I know youre an adult now, but youre still young, Bella, and there are a lot of important things you need to know when you . . . well, when youre physically involved with -Oh, please, please no I begged, jumping to my feet. Please tell me you are not trying to have a sex talk with me, Charlie.He glared at the floor. I am your father. I have responsibilities. Remember, Im just as embarrassed as you are.I dont think thats humanly possible. Anyway, Mom beat you to the punch about ten years ago. Youre off the hook.Ten years ago you didnt have a boyfriend, he muttered unwillingly. I could tell he was battling with his desire to drop the subject. We were both standing up, looking at the floor, and face away from each other.I dont think the essentials have deepend that much, I mumbled, and my face had to be as red as his.This was beyond the seventh disseminate of Hades even worse was realizing that Edward had known this was coming. No wonder hed seemed so smug in the car.Just tell me that you two are being responsible, Charlie pled, obviously wishing a pit would open in the floor so that he could fall in.Dont worry about it, Dad, its not like that.Not that I dont trust you, Bella, but I know you dont want to tell me anything about this, and you know I dont really want to hear it. I will try to be open-m inded, though. I know the times have changed.I laughed awkwardly. Maybe the times have, but Edward is very old-fashioned. You have nothing to worry about.Charlie sighed. Sure he is, he muttered.Ugh I groaned. I really wish you were not forcing me to say this out loud, Dad. Really. But . . . I am a . . . virgin, and I have no immediate plans to change that status.We both cringed, but then Charlies face smoothed out. He seemed to hope me.Can I go to bed, now? Please.In a minute, he said.Aw, please, Dad? Im begging you.The embarrassing parts over, I promise, he assured me.I shot a glance at him, and was grateful to see that he looked more relaxed, that his face was back to its regular color. He sank down onto the sofa, sighing with simplicity that he was past the sex speech.What now?I just cute to know how the balance thing is coming along.Oh. Good, I guess. I made plans with Angela today. Im going to help her with her graduation announcements. Just us girls.Thats nice. And what abo ut Jake?I sighed. I havent typed that one out yet, Dad.Keep trying, Bella. I know youll do the right thing. Youre a good person.Nice. So if I didnt figure out some way to make things right with Jacob, then I was a bad person? That was below the belt.Sure, sure, I agreed. The automatic response almost made me smile it was something Id picked up from Jacob. I even said it in the same patronizing tone he used with his own father.Charlie grinned and turned the sound back on. He slumped lower into the cushions, pleased with his nights work. I could tell he would be up with the game for a while.Night, Bells.See you in the morning I sprinted for the stairs.Edward was long gone and he wouldnt be back until Charlie was asleep he was probably out hunting or something to pass the time so I was in no charge to undress for bed. I wasnt in the mood to be alone, but I certainly wasnt going to go back downstairs to hang out with my Dad, just in case he thought of some topic of sex education th at he hadnt touched on before I shuddered.So, thanks to Charlie, I was wound up and anxious. My homework was done and I didnt feel mellow enough for reading or just audience to music. I considered calling Rene with the news of my visit, but then I realized that it was three hours later in Florida, and she would be asleep.I could call Angela, I supposed.But suddenly I knew that it wasnt Angela that I wanted to talk to. That I needed to talk to.I stared at the blank black window, burred my lip. I dont know how long I stood there weighing the pros against the cons doing the right thing by Jacob, seeing my closest friend again, being a good person, versus making Edward furious with me. Ten minutes maybe. Long enough to decide that the pros were valid while the cons were not. Edward was only concerned about my safety, and I knew that there was really no problem on that count.The phone wasnt any help Jacob had refused to answer my phone calls since Edwards return. Besides, I needed to see him see him smiling again the way he used to. I needed to replace that awful last memory of his face warped and twisted by pain if I was ever going to have any peace of mind.I had an hour probably. I could make a quick run down to La Push and be back before Edward realized I had gone. It was past my curfew, but would Charlie really care about that when Edward wasnt involved? One way to find out.I grabbed my jacket and shoved my arms through the sleeves as I ran down the stairs.Charlie looked up from the game, instantly suspicious.You care if I go see Jake tonight? I asked breathlessly. I wont stay long.As soon as I said Jakes name, Charlies expression relaxed into a smug smile. He didnt seem surprised at all that his lecture had taken effect so quickly. Sure, kid. No problem. Stay as long as you like.Thanks, Dad, I said as I darted out the door. resembling any fugitive, I couldnt help looking over my shoulder a few times while I jogged to my truck, but the night was so black th at there really was no point. I had to feel my way along the side of the truck to the handle.My eyes were just beginning to coiffure as I shoved my keys in the ignition. I twisted them hard to the left, but instead of roaring deafeningly to life, the engine just clicked. I tried it again with the same results.And then a small motion in my fringy vision made me jump.Gah I gasped in shock when I saw that I was not alone in the cab.Edward sat very still, a faint bright spot in the darkness, only his hands moving as he turned a mysterious black object around and around. He stared at the object as he spoke.Alice called, he murmured.Alice Damn. Id forgotten to account for her in my plans. He must have her watching me.She got nervous when your future rather abruptly disappeared five minutes ago.My eyes, already coarse with surprise, popped wider.Because she cant see the wolves, you know, he explained in the same low murmur. Had you forgotten that? When you decide to mingle your fate wit h theirs, you disappear, too. You couldnt know that part, I realize that. But can you understand why that might make me a little . . . anxious? Alice saw you disappear, and she couldnt even tell if youd come home or not. Your future got lost, just like theirs.Were not sure why this is. Some natural defense theyre born with? He spoke as if he were talking to himself now, still looking at the piece of my trucks engine as he twirled it in his hands. That doesnt seem entirely likely, since I havent had any trouble reading their thoughts. The Blacks at least. Carlisle theorizes that its because their lives are so ruled by their transformations. Its more an involuntary reaction than a decision. Utterly unpredictable, and it changes everything about them. In that instant when they shift from one form to the other, they dont really even exist. The future cant hold them. . . .I listened to his musing in stony silence.Ill put your car back together in time for school, in case youd like to dri ve yourself, he assured me after a minute.With my lips mashed together, I retrieved my keys and stiffly climbed out of the truck.Shut your window if you want me to stay away tonight. Ill understand, he verbalise just before I slammed the door.I stomped into the house, slamming that door, too.Whats wrong? Charlie demanded from the couch.Truck wont start, I growled. trust me to look at it?No. Ill try it in the morning.Want to use my car?I wasnt supposed to drive his police cruiser. Charlie must be really desperate to get me to La Push. Nearly as desperate as I was.No. Im tired, I grumbled. Night.I stamped my way up the stairs, and went straight to my window. I shoved the metal frame roughly it crashed shut and the glass trembled.I stared at the shivering black glass for a long moment, until it was still. Then I sighed, and opened the window as wide as it would go.